an awkward moment

Blackberry post-

Ever have one of those moments that aren't especially bad, yet not especially good? They leave you thinking "what was that all about?"

Today has been such a moment and I thought I'd share. I got a text last night from an ex of mine. "Can I see you tomorrow morning? There's something we need to talk about."

"Sure," I said hesitantly. This particular ex has been something of a psycho, but I was curious. I had another appointment that fell through, so she came and picked me up. Since I hadn't seen her in some time, there was the usual chit chat. Finally I just bored ahead and asked what was up? She admitted that she is getting married sometime this month. I wasn't surprised, but gave her my sincerest congrats. I noticed that she watched me closely.

She was waiting for a reaction and I really didn't have one. I was glad for her, if this is what she wants, but I wasn't upset, either. It was some kind of strange neutrality.

I think its possible she expected me to suddenly step up and claim her! Not going to happen. Eventually, we talked about other things, she brought me home, I gave her a hug and congrats again.

I am still puzzled about my own total lack of emotional response. I will have to think about it.